hiie guy im here blogging again.

got a new desplay from my popo.

a wooden house with hello kitty zodiac in it.

and a few diff kind of cartoon on the root.

cute huh.

hahaha.

nth much lately amm.

get to get over him as i have a great friend that help me out.

gave me care.

his been a great friend or can i say korkor.

hahaha.

thanks kor.

and these are some of the pics of the zodiac and the wooden house. :)

miss all my classmate and kor lotlotzzz.

cya soon guy.

cant wait for sch reopen.

and my life is goin on v smoothly.

the 12 day without u.

im really really mad abt what u have lie.

if u have not lie to me abt it during the whole time i wont have care so much.

i wont have got so mad.

or even i may give u my bless.

but seen u have choose to lie.

i got nth to say.

at the start of ur relationship.

u have a stead, we got tgt.

and on the day we got tgt ur ex found out and u asked me not to contact u.

i walk away u stop me, stop me from going and say u will settle with her.

i gave u time.

i waited and waited and at the nite of the day u called me say u broke up with her do u knw how hapi i was at that moment.

i can get tat hapi until i cried.

the hapiness of tears.

we got tgt.

u knw my parents are strict.

and u come to my house every sat and sun.

we didnt go out.

as for u said that u cant get over urself ask for im taller then u.

i dont mind but i knw u mind.

so i didnt say a word and bear with it.

it ok. as long as we are tgt no matter where, when, and how i will still be as hapi as for i knw im with u.

even if we go out walkin on the street, u didnt hold me hand as for u dont want ppl to knw.

i felt sad.

as for i want to let the whole world knw that u are my stead.

but nvm i change my way of lookin things.

we got tgt not long.

u start to change.

last time we can be webcaming and tokin on fone and making funni faces at the same time.

having a great time.

slowin u change.

we on cam but didnt tok.

u were typing, i ask u got mad say playin games.

nvm i go on with u.

slowin u keep sayin abt breakin up.

i really got upsad and mad.

i already give in.

and u still......

nvm we dont say 4eva but as long as we can.

i try to hold it as long as i can.

cause i knw if i hold i can still call u my baby.

but soon enough on the one month anni.

u ask for a break up.

a real break up.

on 140909.

u say u love me but u knw it unfair.

and u want to break up as u perfer to have a single life.

i give it back to u a single life.

and u said u love me on the day we break.

soon enough i online as usual.

see u online.

but i didnt tok to u.

but later.

u put ur nick as 180909/1015.

i knw the date means something.

but i dont knw what 1015 was abt.

i ask u hide u offline.

i when to tagged.com and found out ur profile change.

and someone said i love u to u.

i knw u got a stead.

i saw the profile of the girl.

i saw the same date.

and when to have a look at the pic.

saw that one of it was on ur fone and u told me that was ur ex.

then i knw.

u said u dont love her no more from the v start.

but u patch back with her 4 days after we break.

that nth wrong i knw.

but what im angry is.

u lie abt loving her.

u lie abt loving me when we broke up.

u lie to me abt perfering a single life.

u lie to me by hiding.

u lie to me abt hating her.

when i sms u.

u said-

"i didnt lie. that up for u to belive. if u dont belive i also got nth to say."

and when i ask abt why. u didnt reply.

and then i rmb u like to rmb the time u stead.

when we stead u nv even write anything now.

now u write the date and time tgt and for ur so call ex u dont love.

u said be4 u hate her.

but u end up lieing to me.

u write it on msn a few day after u patch with her.

and u think i didnt tok to u so i wont relise.

but sad to say sori i saw.

and sori i knw what going on.

u need not lie to me again as for im not going to care anymore.

i'hv learn to wake up from my dream.

i'hv learn to stand up after fallin.

i'hv learn not to rely on boy.

i'hv learn not to belive.

i'hv learn that dreams are dreams and i should wake up one day.

i'hv learn that fairytales are fairytales.

i'hv learn that lier like u dont worth my tears.

i'hv cried enough for u.

i got tired of crying for u.

i got sick of lier like u.

i got enough lies from u.

i have learn to carry on moving in life.

as for i knw its all lie and i should have wake up till now.

life goes on.

thanks to u i knw that dream are dream and i shouldnt rely on it so much.

as for it still a dream.

KELLIS IS BACK.

back to where she once were!!

Life Goes On Like Usual.

kellis have learn how to stand after she falls.

JIA YOUS KELLIS. U CAN DE. I BELIVE U CAN.

omg.

my blog is rushing.

nvm no one bother to go in too.

but i still got to write.

amm.

nth much lately as for nv much happen.

my cousin was sick and she come to my place to see doctor and stayed over nite as it was v late.
sh got no choice cause her skin infection was v serious so her mum broght her here. she is onli K2 and gotskin infection near the eye .

haii. just say her pretty not long ago then now haiiii.

so poor thing.

and since i got holiday for 3 wks.

then i go back with them on the day.

stay there pai her lo.

poor girl cant go out, cant eat seafood.

haiiii.

no choice she like that.

maybe staying until friday barh.

parents dont let me go out also haiiiii.

their brain are still in the 80's.

whaolaoa go out also cannot lerh.

must got good reason.

what then count sia.

go out with friends eat dinner say waste money cannot go.

dont knw why my parents like that.

i hate it u knw.

want go out cannot go out.

still need reason wth lo.

my friends lerh want go out just go.

no need say why. just where and what time back.

got go back and slp can lerh.

not like me.

go out onli got 6 hours.

go out at most 9 must be back.

a bit late also scold.

stupid lo.
lock me in the house and think i wont learn bad.

how am i going to learn what in the outside world when they dont even let me go and see what the outside

world look like

grr.

i hate my parents.

they think they are giving me the best but they are wrong.

they are just hurtin me.

i cant learn what in the outside world.

i cant get to make more friends as for all my friend i knw are from sch and class.

i cant get more exp outside.

i cant ger better relationship with my friend.

everytime they want to go out they wont ask me as for they knw i wont be able to.

see how u turn my life into.

u will ruin my whole entire life i tell u.

i hate my life.

i hate myself.

and i dont knw why.

my 4th dat without is not v good.

i kept thinking abt u.

at nite i woke up wonder where are u.

thinkin of the wonderful moment we had tgt.

but suddenly my mind go blank everything is black and i cried.

i dont knw what happenin and i dont knw why.

i tot i could let go but i cant.

cause u are wonderful.

im sori but i need the time to get over it and i dont knw when.

this morning free so not right.

i woke up at the time that i tot u will be comin and then i rmb that we broke up lerh.

what more can go wrong.

haii.

let not tok abt it anymore.

when to ella house on fri.

played maple watch gong.

was fun.

when home had dinner outside with my popo.

was yummy.

haha.

nth much lately.

holiday is here.

and i got nth to do.

just broke up no one is coming to pai me on sat and sun morning lerh.

sian.

what im doin now is. watchin gong and blogging at the same time.

haha.

its like one stone kill 2 brid sentence.

hahaha.

gonna miss big times.

gonna miss my sat and sun morning having u around.

but that nth i can do.

so too bad.

got to get over it.

day 2 without u was not good too.

but better then ytd.

i try not to think of u much.

until u sms me.

i wonder who it is who sms me at that time.

saw that it was u. i was so totally shock.

and open it was empty.

haii.

it ur friend who send wrong sms.

nvm.

after that i keep thinkin of u.

thinkin the past.

hear song wanted to cry but i didnt cause im in the bus with my friend i dont want them to ask.

ask for i dont want to say.

i scare i may cry more if i told.

but now im thinkin of u.

thinkin what u are doin and who u are with.

suan lerh what over is over.

today no sch.

parents dont knw.

when out to find my friends. soo ping and ella again.

haha.

when to tampines shop.

ella was late as she took the wrong bus and went to yck.

then me and soo ping got lost at the basement as we cant find the exit and took the stairs =.=

damn we were tired.

when to timezone to play while waiting for ella.

ate there and got a few staff.

bought a lot of bread from breadtalk.

haha.

met ella and when timezone again.

when to buy some staff.

walk walk here and there.

was fun and got tired.

wanted to rest but got ppl must sit properly.

then soo ping when toilet woo then toilet was like living room. got sofa, table, mirror and chair.

rest there for quite a long time.

took a lot of photo.

ella today dress more like a girl girl.

haha.

so nice.

did some make up for her.

soo ping dont want do

haha.

took a lot of pic todays.

haha.

enjoy seeing.

>>>ella,soo ping, kellis

the first day without u.

WAS HURTFUL.

thinkin of smsin u in the morning as i got use to it.

im so silly to look at my fone all the time to see if it was u or not.

once my fone rang im so excited tot it was u.

once i see it not u my mood swing.

haii.

i got so use to it.

that not without u my life change.

i cant get my old self back.

i dont knw where to find my confident, my soul, myself back from the past.

it was alway u in my life this month.

i knw it wont last.

but i didnt knw it so quick.

and i did not prepare for that to happen so soon.

im lose.

lose in the world.

the big big world.

the world is so big to me that i cant find my old self back.

dont knw where it flow to.

where can i find it.

WHERE.

u once told me not to leave but.

now u are the one who say u want to leave just because u cant get over urself that im taller.

if love is like those prince and princess story how good can it be.

why does those handsome guy go with chio bu de lerh.

and those unhandsome guy want chio bu.

for me as long as he love me.

why is love so diff.

why does god make it so diff for us.

haii i also dont knw what gods wan.

i dont belive in myself now.

the feelin sux. sori to use that word but it really do.

the feelin make me feel like dieing.

omggosh.

why does i have to come to this world.

i love this world but on the other hand i hate the love in this world.

cause none of them are real.

no matter how hard u try to hold the relationship it still not gonna stay there.

one day one side is going fade and it going to let go.

and u wont knw when and where or how it will come.

i do everything to hold this relationship.

but in the end it still wont last.

on the first month anni.

we celebrated it one day earlier.

on the day of our anni itself.

at nite, we really broke off.

we say break up a wk be4 i think.

and he come find me end up he say dont break first.

we nv say 4eva but as long as we can.

but we still cant make it.

haii.

i dont blame u for not being with me.

but i blame myself coming to this world with this look.

why cant i be chio bu lerh.

why must i be me.

i cant figure it out.

hello.

bloggin here again.

today arh.

same lo nth much when CWP with ella and soo ping again.

haha.

soo ping left early today as usual.

left me and ella walkin at the pasamalam.

at the start ella as wanting to go there to buy some staff for the sister.

then i when there for my new thumbdrive.

soo ping when there for the cheaps bread. haha.

i got my thumbdrive, and my tarot cards. yay!!

love it. fahrenheit one de.

woohoo.

when to pasamalam to eat quiet a lot of things.

omg gong to be fat fat fat. haha.

thumbdrive got 8GB for $38.90.

my tarot cards for $8.90.

ate quiet a lot of yummy food.

this few days i found out that i keep going out with ella and soo ping lerh.

lol.

and what most i found out that it not what i say matters.

its fates that matters.

haii.

love is not as easy as u think.

at the start u may find it v sweet.

but slowly what u thinks change.

everything change.

u change i change.

i change to give in more.

u change to give in less.

its me that tot that we can need not say 4eva but tgt as long as possible.

think i got it wrong barh.

u are showing everything on ur sms and calls and toks.

why.

i dont knw why.

what wrong did i do.

is it onli chio bu deserve all those good staff.

what abt me.

i may not be perfect but im always me.

i did nth wrong to deserve all this from all of u.

i didnt want to be born like these faces.

thats what gods gave me.

why.

why does chio bu have all the good staff and not ppl like me.

i just want a simple relationship thats all.

why cant god give me.

i didnt ask for alot of things.

but a simple wish and u cant give me.

what more can i ask from u god.

i dont want to be chio, i no need to be chio.

i just want to have a guy thats love me thats all.

that all i ask for.

REALLY!!

ON 12,09

ytd was not able to post cause of some reason.
haha.
good reason.
when to BUGIS with ella and soo ping and one person but the person say she cannot let ppl knw she go wor.
so i better not say her name here.
if not she will kill me.
haha.
be4 going to bugis.
i met ella and have lunch with her.
ate PEPPER LUNCH.
OMGGOSH.
this is the first time i have ate it.
i wanted to eat it long time ago but didnt have a chance.
finally i have a chance to eat it and with ella its was her first time there too.
haha.
poor ppl marh.
so can rarely have a chance to go eat those staff marh.
we are not rich u knw.
haha.
then meet the person at bugis waited so long lo.
u arh go sch smack u then u knw.
haha.
then we 3 girls go walk walk the whole bugis street.
and bugis juction.
ella got herself 2 keychain at 'make a name.'
whao so sweet sia for the bf bdae.
got her bf name with a bear.
and her name with a bear.
what the fish lo the bear fishin exp. 13 plus.
plus the keychain 17 plus.
total got 30 plus lo.
haha. ella arh ella.
and that was her first time rmb the bf bdae.
sweet sia.
last long.
then there come soo ping call.
met her at abt 7 plus then walk walk awhile.
then she got to go.
she took mrt.
ella, soo ping and me took the bus but diff no.
ella and me took 133 to amk saw ella bf wor holding some gift for ella.
wanted to catch a movie as the bf say want treat but end up my strict mother say NO.
suan lerh nvm they enjoy and i when home slp.
haha.
and i got my baby a ciga box with lighter.
no money buy exp exp things marh.
at least better then nth.
haha.
i make baby name on top of it too.
haha.
baby arh baby love u.
haha.
although what u said on friday really hurt but.
i knw what u mean.
its ok i knw it wont last but i want to make it as long as possible.
i knw im silly but what most is i love u or not.
nth else.
i care what u say, i care what u do.


ON 13,09

baby come to my house.
we didnt go out to celebrate as he dont want let ppl knw wor.
always say unfair to me.
i dont care where, when, how we celebrate.
as long as im with u.
no matter where.
no matter when.
no matter how.
as long as i see u.
i will still be so hapi.
where doesnt matter as u need not spend money on anni. save up for things u like also can what, if not all ppl are goin go bankrup ler lo..
when doesnt matter as when im with u i reall feel v bless. i cant go out often to find u. so when doesnt matters to me. as long as u are with me.
how doesnt matters to me too. as i dont want my love one to spend money on food and staff.
and simple gift will do. need not be those exp one. but to me what most is not the gift it the love u put in the gift.
today see baby slp was really funni.
wake up see me say dont want slp lerh but no need 10 sec slp back.
haha.
baby arh baby. what a ZHU u can be.
my baby slp so cute de lo.
got pose somemore.
haha.
then wake up hug me then slp again.
diao then i cannot move. =.=
feels like a kolar bear.
haha.

hope to have more laugher in our relationship until the day comes.

haii.
yoz guys im here blogging again.
but a sad news.
im just broke off.
some of u will be happi and will laugh.
but i just want to say that is nth wrong breakin off and finding the wrong guy.
u may laugh but one day u will knw.
that breaking up is not a funni thing and its painful.
some of u may knw but will still laugh.
i dont care.
what i care most is why baby want leave me.
i did nth wrong to deserve all this crap.
all u say is u dont want to be control, u cant get over urself cause im taller, and i knw it wont last.
what crap is this.
u are sayin all this as a reason to break up.
and u say it not ur reason its the fact.
i dont knw what hapen.
i knw where is something wrong lerh.

u use to reply my sms v v v fast still can say i v slow.
use to wake up early to call me tok until i reach sch then u go slp. wake up call me again.
sms me all the time.
now getting lesser and lesser.
lesser calls also.
tok to me also like not hapi tok to other so hapi.
now u can say u are tired and dont want to sms me.
can say dont want tok to me then hang my fone.
why baby why.
why do u have to do this to me.
i dont deserve all this.
i did nth all.
its because im taller and u dont want to be control.
why.
WHY.
WHY WHY WHY.

i wont be able to slp.
i wont be able to eat.
i wont be able to smile.
what more can i do.
there is nth more i can do in this world.
u come in to my world.
and now u say u want to leave and u left.
left me all alone behide.
why baby.
WHY.
i dont get the reason why.
i dont want u to leave.
i dont want to be alone.
i want to be able to call baby.
i want to be able to call u and tok.
i want to be able to sms u every morning.
i want to be able to hug u every sat and sun.
i want to be with baby,
i want baby.

but baby want break.

and i just want to tell u.
no matter when, where, what, when.
i will still be happi.
as long as im with u i will be supper hapi.
cause as long as i see u there no one else.
so i dont care.
when im with u.
the world change.
in my world there's onli me and u.

i knw baby love me like u say.
u just cant get over urself.
i knw i knw i knw.
u say u dont dare to go out with me u feel bad.
i cant go out find u i also feel bad.
i also nv force u to show ppl u are my bf.
its ok for me as long as u are with me i will be supper hapi.
baby arh baby.
i dont want to force u also.
i dont knw what to say is because after u say all this i have lose all my confident.
im scare.
im really scare.

hello guy.
its been months every since i last posted.
nth much lately, all project project and more project.
haha. but i had fun with the project just that there are some mini problem sometime that i didnt get enough time.
got some fight here and there with my friends.
nvm not going care cause what more important is studies.
im not gonna care what things they talk behide me.
although i knw and i feel bad feel like talkin it out but.
suan lerh no one is there.
everybody have their own things to be bz with.
nvm i dont blame them.
just want tp have peace in my life and hope thing goes on smoothly from now on.
hope that no more crop up will happen.
what more important i wan my friend and family to love me for who i am and not who im not.
trust what u see and not what u hear.
passing this to all ppl.
if u every gonna hear anything, and u want to ask me go ahead like rose.
i wont mind, and if u dont feel like tellin me who the person is im fine with it.
for one thing if u trust me, u wont belive. if u dont, u will think that it true that ppl say bad abt me was right.
thats y i always say trust what u see and not what u hear.
this sentences is v important.
RMB trust is what u need.

OK no more sad things.
not lets tok abt the nice things happenin this pass few days or months ?
lol.
some of the thing bought during this period of time.
got some shirt, watch, fake nails, 3D nails art from my mum.
and i got myself a new water holder, markers, nails, make up set.
haha.

Fake nails>>>


3D nails art>>>


makeup set>>>


watch(moving words and numbers.)>>>


tattoo>>>






marker>>>


water holder.>>>


me to baby>>>