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Tuesday, September 15, 2009
the first day without u. WAS HURTFUL. thinkin of smsin u in the morning as i got use to it. im so silly to look at my fone all the time to see if it was u or not. once my fone rang im so excited tot it was u. once i see it not u my mood swing. haii. i got so use to it. that not without u my life change. i cant get my old self back. i dont knw where to find my confident, my soul, myself back from the past. it was alway u in my life this month. i knw it wont last. but i didnt knw it so quick. and i did not prepare for that to happen so soon. im lose. lose in the world. the big big world. the world is so big to me that i cant find my old self back. dont knw where it flow to. where can i find it. WHERE. u once told me not to leave but. now u are the one who say u want to leave just because u cant get over urself that im taller. if love is like those prince and princess story how good can it be. why does those handsome guy go with chio bu de lerh. and those unhandsome guy want chio bu. for me as long as he love me. why is love so diff. why does god make it so diff for us. haii i also dont knw what gods wan. i dont belive in myself now. the feelin sux. sori to use that word but it really do. the feelin make me feel like dieing. omggosh. why does i have to come to this world. i love this world but on the other hand i hate the love in this world. cause none of them are real. no matter how hard u try to hold the relationship it still not gonna stay there. one day one side is going fade and it going to let go. and u wont knw when and where or how it will come. i do everything to hold this relationship. but in the end it still wont last. on the first month anni. we celebrated it one day earlier. on the day of our anni itself. at nite, we really broke off. we say break up a wk be4 i think. and he come find me end up he say dont break first. we nv say 4eva but as long as we can. but we still cant make it. haii. i dont blame u for not being with me. but i blame myself coming to this world with this look. why cant i be chio bu lerh. why must i be me. i cant figure it out. |
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